Another Epidural.......I think NOT

So for those of you who know me close, you know I have been battling terrible headaches. I have always had migraines, but these headaches are the result from a epidural gone wrong while delivering Avery.

I went into the whole labor process with the mentality of not having the epidural. But since my labor hit me so fast and I was already a 6 by the time I realized I was indeed in labor, I was begging for it. Talk about an out of body experience. Any way, in the process the anesthesiologist gave me a post dural puncture(leaking spinal fluid), which cause a spinal headache that led to getting a blood patch (worse than labor might I add), which caused me to develop meningitis. I have seen a neurologist and there is nothing they can do. The headaches have gotten better but I still cannot bend over and let my head go past my knees and when I get onto the floor to play with my sweet Avery, it takes me a good minute or so for my head to stop pounding.

It brings me to tears to think that I had to lay in bed the first month of my daughters' life due to this stupid mistake and I am still not able to function 100%. I am tired of the headaches, the pain, and the inconvenience that these things have caused me. I am so angry about the entire situation. I have had so many people tell me to sue....Who has the time and the money. I am not that kind of person and what is suing someone going to fix. It will not take away the pain and will definitely not give me back Avery's first month. This is a VENT post and I needed to get this out. I deal with pain quite well, but this is getting old.

The situation was so bad that I do not want an epidural for my next delivery. I would rather be in that much pain then deal with the possibility of this happening again. I couldn't do it. Anyway, I got a beautiful healthy baby out of the whole process.

Avery has found her................

FEET!!!!!

Avery has found her feet! She started doing this on September 8, 2010. It is so cute. This morning I unzipped her pajamas and the first thing she did was grad those toes. She will lay and roll around and just smile ear to ear. Just thought I would share!

Lately

So we are settling into our changed life quite well. We are enjoying the space and changing the things we want to make our own. Jason asked me the other night, "Do you think we will ever come to a stopping point where we say 'ok we are done'." I said probably not. It is fun though. Both of us are really enjoying the people we work with. Everyone has made us feel very welcome. Frisco is a great district to work for and I am glad they chose us to work here. Being by our family has made life great. We have seen our family more in the last month than we have in the last three years. I am so glad Avery will get to grow up with her grandparents! Speaking of my sweet angel.........

Today was probably the hardest day of being a mother so far. I had to leave Avery at the babysitter for the first time. I cried so hard going to work and cried every time someone asked me if I was ok. The sweet lady we found is so patient and seems to just adore Avery. It is not an issue of trust it is just letting her stay with someone other than me or her grandparents. Avery is such a happy baby, but she is not the easiest baby. I fear that someone other than me will get impatient or frustrated. I just want her to happy and enjoy where she is during the day. I believe that Ms. Holly will take good care of her.

Avery is getting so big. She is 13 pounds and 11 ounces and is in the 50th percentile for height and weight. She is laughing and "trying" to talk back to me. I look forward to her getting more mobile but then I know I will want her back in my arms. I look forward to her 1st Christmas this year, her first time in the snow, and her 1st birthday party. I was already thinking about her birthday before she was two months old. She will be the cutest cupcake on the block! My mom bought her the most precious birthday outfit and we got her invitations when Swoozies went out of business. She changes everyday and I love her with all my heart.

We are looking forward to the Sherman Arts Fest, the Plano Balloon Festival, Oktober fest, and Jason's 10 year high school reunion. The amazing weather was so nice last week! Just the many reasons we are glad to be back in North Texas. With all the good, there is the bad and the things I pray for daily. My parents, my sister, my family.........I pray for good health, for kind hearts, and clarity in your lives. It was a rough day for me and I pray for each day to get better. It is so hard to let go in a sense but I know Ms. Holly will be wonderful.

One more thing. Avery cheered for her Red Raiders this weekend and she looked super cute. Go Red Raiders!

The sweet Pom Girls gave her the t-shirt and socks.

We love our Red Raiders!

Our new home

This is the before and after of our new home! Joey Womble was a wonderful realtor and we greatly appreciate his patience and helpfulness.

Before
After

Our closing!!!!!!!!!!!